Owl City

So I spent the last two nights talking with Caleb-kun.
Last night he was afraid of the commitment.
I wonder what today will bring.
I just want to love him, that's all.

Now that I've mentioned I have a blog,
my mom will want to see it.
Blogs are a good way
to write often
and true to oneself.
Even a woman at the
Columbia University thing said that.
Of course, she was awful.

I broke up with Garett
and Caleb stepped into my life.
It wasn't even intentional.
But for a few days,
it felt like it used to be.
I'm kinda dumb.
Nothing's as it ever will be.

We listen to Owl City together
and think about each other.
I don't know if that's a good thing
because some songs are about
missing each other all the time
because we can't be together.
but most are rejoicing,
because at least the Owl City guy
knows he's found his love.
Dumb Caleb.
He's found his too.
He just doesn't know what to do.

Yeah, Mom would kill me if she read this.

Jekka-nee called this morning
to see if I wanted to go to an anime convention
at King of Prussia.
This sort of stuff
always burns holes in wallets
and I said I'd need to save up.
Also I have this date tonight.
Which won't be fun..
Or it might be.
I just miss Caleb
because when he's away
there's nowhere I'd rather be
than with him.
And when he's there
and I can rest
in his arms
my ear against his chest
listening to his heartbeat
nothing can offer more happiness.

My couch cushions smell like him.
I wanted to sleep on them last night,
but I think I'll just leave them as they are.
Rest on them sometimes
and breathe him in
like I would
for those few days
when we were in love.