do elephants go through puberty

(The title was what came up on my drop down screen. I liked it)

Caleb told me he was going to ask me out.
And I didn't need that.
(Though it would've been amazing)
I was glad he thought of me
even if someone persuaded him
to not go out with me.

Garett keeps writing this amazing stuff
and Jake says he doesn't want to love me.
Where's Tisen in all this?
Silly puppet got away.

I told Jake I never wanted to be in love.
That's a lie
and he saw right through it.
I feel like I'm lying to him
and to Garett
when I know I'm telling the truth.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough.
Other times I hate them and want them
to get out of my life.
But I've seen them alone.
I've watched the loneliness consume them.
And they look exactly like me
when I'm lonely.
I will not leave them
to this world
because they're better than that.
They're better than me,
but they're also better than loneliness
and I am better than loneliness.

I won't leave them.
I love them.
So much.
They drive me crazy,
I hate them sometimes,
I've thrown my phone across the room
and wanted to smack them until their cheeks are too red.
But I've wanted to hold Garett's head in my lap
and sing for him
and make him smile
in any way I can.

I want to give my all for them.
I'm just so scared to love them.
Don't tell them, but..
I already do.

It's easy to love so many different people
when your heart's been broken as many times
as mine has.
It's just another little piece
that they get to keep for themselves
forever.
and ever.
even if the sky is falling down.